I moved this past week.. which was surprisingly more emotional then I thought it’d be. The actual moving went well and very quickly. But the process of finding pictures of my Grandma who passed away and her suit case and scarfs… hit me with a wave of emotions that I just wasn’t expecting. I miss her deeply this week.
Normally I’d isolate myself and just grieve… but I pushed through it this week. I made myself stick to my schedule… which involved going to meetings (aka church) when normally I’d avoid it when I know some of the topics going to be discussed involved death. But I went… granted I cried… and I hate crying in front of others. But after I just felt good to be surrounded by what I consider to be my extended family.
I am incredibly thankful for the people in my life. I feel so blessed to be surrounded by such joyful, giving and loving people. Who bring me so much laughter and happiness. I have so many adopted fathers and mothers who are constantly looking out for me and taking care of me in big and small ways. I can’t even begin to express my appreciation for their expressions of love and faith in me. They push me when I need it and pick me up when I’m down. I don’t know what I did to be so blessed with all these people. I wish I could just freeze my life in these moments surrounded by these beautiful people. I can’t imagine my life being better then it is in these moments. Despite there being a Grandma-shaped hole in my heart/life… I feel very complete and surrounded by love.
My roommates are amazing and just when I thought I couldn’t love them anymore then I already do… they surprise me with more warmth and laughter then I thought possible.
Goal for this week: Write 2 thank you letters to people who I couldn’t have gotten through this week without.